One week from tomorrow, I will have taken my final exam. One week from tomorrow, the last six years of my life will finally be over, and I will have earned my diploma. Next Thursday marks the end of one part of my life and the beginning of a brand new adventure, and I can’t wait to see what life has in store. This is all sort of surreal, because all I’ve ever known, really, is school. I’ve always had something to study for, or some presentation to prepare. I’ve consistently found myself crying over exams that I could have done better on and wondering whether this college journey would ever end. And here it is. The end.
For now, at least. Someday, I might get ambitious and go back for my master’s, but for the moment, I’m proud just to have my bachelor’s and to move on to something that isn’t related to the grading system. Now the scary part begins, and I’m already questioning, ‘What the hell do I do now?’ I’m not worried, though, because I know I’ll figure it out.
The most exciting part about figuring it out is that I’ll have my husband with me. For the first time in 3 1/2 years of marriage and 4 years of being together, we won’t have 12 hours and 750 miles (sometimes more than that) separating us. I’m looking forward to putting together a solid life for us, without having to fall asleep in separate beds every night.
At the same time that all of this excitement is bubbling up inside of me, my heart is also breaking that I have to leave behind everyone else I love. Well, “behind,” I suppose, isn’t the best word, because that will never happen, but it will undoubtedly be tough not having my family and friends so close. I sort of feel like I’m going to miss out, especially when it comes to all of my cousins, who are growing more and more every day. Thank goodness for Skype, texting, and the Internet. With technology, I don’t have to totally miss everything.
Overall, I’m just really excited. I’m in the middle of preparing for a final paper, exam, and presentation, and I have a ton of packing left to do, but Caleb will be here soon, and we’ll all (meaning Capone, too) be together, and it will be okay. The struggles and challenges have been worth it, and we are finally here. I am so thankful, every day, for all of the supportive, kind people in my life. Each of you have given me something so special, and I will never be able to repay you.